My journey to stop abandoning myself has been a process of self-discovery and growth. It started with building a support team of people who understood what I was going through and could offer guidance and advice. Through fellowship connections and finding a sponsor that I worked well with, I began to trust in their judgment and lean on them when I felt unsure of my own.
In the early days of my recovery, I didn't trust myself at all. I had made so many poor choices and had hurt myself in the process that doubting my own judgment became second nature. But as time went on, and I continued to work on my sobriety and mental health, I began to rebuild that trust.
One of the primary ways I learned to trust myself again was by showing up for myself. This meant saying no to things I didn't want to do and standing up for myself when necessary. In doing so, I learned to prioritize my own needs and desires, much like I would for my own child.
I started to think of my inner child, the part of me that had been hurt and neglected in the past. I began to nurture and care for that inner child, listening to her needs and wants. I realized that by standing up for her, I was standing up for myself and rebuilding that trust.
It hasn't been easy, and there have been setbacks along the way. But through therapy, self-reflection, and staying connected with my support system, I have been able to stop abandoning myself. I now trust in my own judgment and intuition, knowing that I have the tools and support to make good choices.
Recovery is a journey of self-improvement and healing. It's about learning to love yourself again and trusting in your own abilities. By building a strong support system and prioritizing your own needs, you can stop abandoning yourself and start living a life that is true to who you are.